I can’t do it. I won’t do it. I don’t have to do it. So I quit.

Originally I went in to interview for a position with AT&T. My work history wasn’t “good” enough and I was put into a program activating credit cards instead. A program that pays significantly less, because it’s easier. It is easy. I had to have three weeks of training to work for Sprint… there was only 3 days for this program.

And therein lies the problem. Easy sucks. You read a script. There’s no need to use your mind, in fact… don’t even try… it’ll only get you in trouble. Oh, I was good at it. I got cards activated, sold the extra programs, basically acted like a seasoned agent… which I got told more than once. Until I was marked down for saying this instead of that… and again, for stumbling over a sentence because there was a word missing in the script… or how about the time I got in trouble for looking out the window? And the debate there was over my stress ball, and whether or not I could have it.

I don’t sit still. I don’t do one thing for more than a few minutes at a time. Maybe it’s my ADHD, or maybe I’m just different.. But I was coming home in tears at the end of the night. So bored. My brain would explode once I opened the front door, because I hadn’t used it all day. Chris took the brunt of it. All my stress, worry, and anger just poured out through the house.

We decided the extra money wasn’t worth it. Even my Mom, who is all about sticking it out until it gets better, told me to just leave… my mental health, and my relationship with Chris, come first. So I’ll find something else. A place where I can use my mind, and move without fear of being written up. So once again, I’m on the job hunt. Wish me luck.